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Meditation: Meeting the Resistance

A raw, unfiltered meditation born from creative frustration. When banging my head against resistance failed, surrender opened an unexpected doorway. (22 minutes listen time)

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Authenticity, Resistance, Surrender

Stop Trying So Hard: My Perspective on Meditation

A fresh perspective on meditation that moves beyond traditional practices of achieving special states or transcending experience. Instead of efforting to get somewhere, true meditation is about recognizing the awareness that's already here - simply being with what is, allowing everything to arise within our natural state of loving presence.

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Awareness, Meditation, Presence

A 5-Step Spiritual Practice to Help Settle Your Heart in a Chaotic World

Your discomfort isn't wrong—it's information. This article walks you through a gentle 5-step practice for finding center when everything feels chaotic. Moving from honest feeling to sacred connection, you'll discover how to fill your cup and discern what small, love-driven action to take next.

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Meditation, Presence, Remembrance

Stepping Into Spiritual Practice after Religious or Spiritual Trauma

"You don't need their permission to pray." Follow the journey of a twice-exiled spiritual seeker who transformed religious trauma into profound spiritual wisdom. Learn how to become a "translator of spirit," reclaim your relationship with the Divine, and write your own love story with the sacred.

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Grace, Trauma

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