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latest episodes

  • episode 04
  • 23:11

Finding Home in Your Nervous System: A New Approach to Attunement and Wellbeing

  • In this episode of the Actual Infinity Podcast, host Steve Mattus shares a deeply personal journey of transformation… moving from traditional business coaching to a new, attunement-based approach to nervous system wellbeing. Steve discusses the limitations of “regulation” and introduces the ANSEM Model, a holistic framework that honors the wisdom of our bodies, especially for neurodivergent and highly sensitive individuals.
  • episode 3
  • 7:49

I did it AGAIN! (maybe don’t publish this one?)

  • In this raw and unfiltered episode, Steve embraces the 'madness' of authenticity, shedding professional polish to show up unmasked. He reflects on presence, consciousness, and love, sharing his journey of undoing performance and embracing reality—messy, real, and true.
  • episode 02
  • 20:50

Stop Trying So Hard: My Perspective on Meditation

  • In this episode, Steve shares his unique perspective on meditation, drawing from decades of personal experience with various spiritual practices and his own journey through trauma, addiction recovery, and religious displacement. He explores traditional approaches to meditation while offering a simpler, more direct path to experiencing our natural state of being.
  • episode 01
  • 21:32

The Cycle of Evasion & Pursuit

  • In "The Cycle of Evasion and Pursuit," Steve explores the exhausting pattern of running from discomfort while chasing what we think will make us happy. Drawing from personal experiences with trauma and neurodivergence, he reveals how recognizing ourselves as awareness itself - rather than constantly seeking escape or relief - can transform our relationship with difficult experiences and break this cycle naturally.
  • episode 00
  • 4:53

Intro

  • Join Steve Mattus in ∞actualinfinity – a raw, unfiltered exploration of consciousness and awareness. This isn't your typical self-help podcast—it's an invitation to embrace your complete human experience, from trauma to triumph. Whether you're neurodivergent, spiritually curious, or simply seeking deeper truth, discover the loving awareness already within you.